Wow I haven't written in a very long time. Even the entry page has changed. But I just wanted to type in here because I am very irritated. Okay so there's been quite a bit of drama floating around lately but I'm pretty used to it by now. What's making me mad is the fact that it's affecting my friendships with other people. This "drama" isn't even really my thing and yet it still becomes my thing. So apprently someone that I thought was a friend has "changed" and become a fucking asshole. I am beyond upset, beyond angry, beyond pissed... I am fired up as hell right now. This whole thing is so fucking stupid! People can be so stupid sometimes, and for some of those "special" people, all the time. I'm now officially fed up with this situation now. If anything moves past this point I swear to God I will flip a shit and hurt someone. You all know I'm a pretty chill person and it takes A WHOLE LOT to tick me off... no one's ever seen me actually mad not even VERA! I've come close though. This situation is getting there. I just need to stop talking about it cause the more I talk about it the angrier I get.

I miss hunnie so much. I would give anything just to be in his arms right now. It feels like I can't function when he's not around. Honestly, after all the stuff that happened in the beginning, I was so skeptical about him. I couldn't trust him or depend on him for anything. But things changed. It took a while but I learned to trust him again and now I can always depend on him. He completes me. He filles all the spots in my heart that were previously empty with nothing but feelings of joy, happiness, warmth, and comfort. We get into so many little fights over the lamest things possible but they never last. He just ends up calling me a loser until I'm done throwing my little temper tantrums or I get mad at him and force him to apologize even though he did nothing wrong . We've grown to know each other so well... the good, the bad, and the oh so very ugly. We're probably one of the lamest couples ever... with our stupid accents, weird nicknames for things, and just all the dumb jokes that we crack about everything and at the most random moments too. But I think it's those things that make me love him so much, it's those things that make my heart hurt everytime he leaves me, it's those things that make me smile just thinking about them. He truly has all of me... mind, body, and soul.

I'm so tired! I think hunnie really did break me. My hands keep going numb for some reason.

I wrote a really long entry talking about my weekend but my freakin internet disconnected and I lost everything... EVERYTHING! So I'll just re-write it all since ''someone" wants to read it...

My hunnie drove all the way down to Eugene and we went to go feed duckies with his friends. I was freezing and he was running around chasing giant geese. He was too busy running around to keep me warm. But it's okay, I'll forgive him.

Then on Sunday he picked me up and we went to Chili's. The plates were HUGH! After that we watched Kicking and Screaming which was really funny. The little asian kid was so cute! PASS TO THE ITALIANS! After we walked out I was like, "what are we gonna do now?'' Then hunnie was like, "wanna watch another movie,'' and I was like, ''hmmm okay!'' So we went back to his car for a while until the next movie started. He asked if I wanted to see ''something cool'' and then made me close my eyes. Then hunnie did a very mean thing... VERY MEAN! But then he gave me kisses so I forgave him.

We decided to watch Sin City... bad idea. The movie was like 3 hours long... it wouldn't end! The whole movie was pretty much blood and boobies, that's about it. Oh and ass, lots of ass. I bet hunnie enjoyed all three. I started getting a headache near the end of the movie but he made sure I was okay.

We tried to go find the ducky pond we went to the day before but it was nowhere to be found. Instead we ended up in some weird tree garden. What made it even weirder was that parked across from us was a car with the door wide open. Hunnie went over to look and he said some guy was just sleeping there. It was like 10:30 at night, the guy coulda been robbed and not even know it. We walked into the tree garden thinking that the pond was near by... but we were wrong, oh so wrong. We decided to give up after a while. I felt hunnie getting cold so I gave him my jacket... hehe ^_^ My headache went away by the time we got to the house. But then I felt sad because it meant that he had to leave. I hate it when he has to leave or when I have to say goodbye to him. I already miss him and it's only been a day... *sigh*

I can't wait til I go home so then he won't have to suffer, driving in the hot sun for hours just to see me. But it makes me feel special knowing that he cares about me so much, thank you baby.

Yep, that was my weekend. Today kinda sucked because everyone was being grumpy. The customers were grumpy, my uncles were being grumpy, even Ashley was being grumpy. What made it worse was that hunnie didn't call or text me. But he explained to me already so it's okay.

Well that's all I've got for now. Hopefully everyone will be nicer tomorrow. Now I'm going to bed and waiting for hunnie to call me back. He was being mean and talking about other girls earlier so I made him punch himself in the arm.  Nighty night!

HOLY FREAKIN CRAP! My internet has been down for like weeks! I've been going through withdrawl. So my birthday was good. I got lots of money and an I-Pod from my mommy and daddy. Spent a lot of time with a certain loser... and just chilled. I have to work from open til close everyday this week because the lady that usually works in the mornings went on vacation. SO TIRED!!! Other then that I haven't been doing much of anything. Man I'm such a boring person, but then again how exciting can you be in Eugene.

I wanna go home. I miss my friends. I miss my family. I miss my bed. I miss my everything.

Stupid ducky... you make me so mad sometimes you know that!?!? Quack quack quack... what does my little ducky eat, QUACKERS! hehe